The photo marks an especially composite time in my life where i was not anymore and had not yet become. As Covid-Sars 2 had hit society with no remedy and little outlook for what would happen next, i aswell, did not want to be determined yet.
What Victor Turner had called the intra-structual phase of initiation, had come about humans as a whole, the outcome undetermined though – we knew to grow, just not yet, we knew where to.
While my mind was made up to continue living through time as if walking though spilled honey, i needed to recreate my output as something permanent. The temporarilty of theatre had made it difficult to chronicle the moments of past sucess as little more than a picture or video.
With only traces available if material hardly reachable the new process itself would come to determine my ability in general.